I’m having a hard time getting my thoughts out of my head.

I’m frustrated.

I’ve seen the wind and the waves. I’m overwhelmed at the task God has given me and I feel inadequate. Truth is, I am inadequate, and that’s OK because it’s God’s dream and not my own. So naturally only He can do it.

But still, it’s humbling to be so small at times.

I think part of where I’m getting frustrated is that I’m seeing other people doing this art movement. Of course I should be exhilarated – and I am to a degree – but I so desperately want to be a part of it. It feels like God is using others to accomplish the dream He’s given me (instead of me) & I’m just standing on the sideline itching to go into the game. I’m not in it for my own glory or recognition, but I don’t want to feel left out either.

I have way too many thoughts jumping up and down on the trampoline of my brain today. Normally writing helps, but there’s too much to write, and I have way too many things that need to be done on my one day off. I also know these are just “feelings” and that satan is just trying to discourage me. I recognize this and it helps, but we all get bruised in battle from time to time.