I’ve been feeling very stifled lately.

I’m working like crazy to pay off credit cards as fast as possible. It’s been good to work hard and pursue a goal like becoming debt free, but my soul is struggling with the payoff. Yes, I am paying off quite a bit off my credit cards, but what am I losing in the process?

I feel like the floor as been raised and i’m bent over with my back on the ceiling. I feel cramped and squished and unable to stretch out to my full potential. Most of you have no idea what specifically I’m talking about, but you can identify.

I want to invest in people. I want to help raise up valiant artists. I want to tell people my story. I want to change lives. I want to make a difference. I want people to know that God can be trusted. I want those same people to live like it.

I’m working too much. So much is happening in my life right now, and I’m learning so much about faith, trust, and learning to truly live the Christian life. I’m learning what it means to be so desperate for God, that it doesn’t matter to me if He gets me out of these situations I’m in as long as He’s there with me. Each new little nugget I learn is like shaking  a soda bottle with the top still on. I want to burst. I have so much art to create but no time or resources. As it is, I barely have time to even write this small post.

For those who read this – pray for me. I have a hard time asking for help, but pray for me. Pray that I find the right balance. Pray that I find the right opportunities. Pray I’m in the right place at the right time and say the right thing. While you’re at it, pray that for yourself as well. We forget how important each passing second is. Each passing minute could be an opportunity to change somebody’s forever eternal future. Each passing second could also be our last.